Sometimes our deep core belief in our separation from God and our unworthiness weakens enough that God’s love can flow into us unimpeded; and when this happens, our hearts are transfixed in an intense beam of love. There is a wonderful statue by the Italian master Bernini representing St Theresa in her ecstatic union with her beloved Lord. She is depicted being pierced through her heart by the dart of love released by a loving cherubim. While this leads to her ecstasy, we can see that the feeling is by no means unalloyed bliss. The feeling of love is so intense that it is almost as painful as it is joyful.
Is this ecstatic union reserved solely for unalloyed Saints like Theresa of Avila? No. If your heart hungers for divine union, then it will not rest until you find your way through all the dead ends and dark nights of your spiritual journey to this abode of Pure Love. Trust me on this. It can and will happen to you- if you persist in risking to open your heart and wait. Wait for what? Wait for your ego to let go of its insistence that you are not worthy of this love and must strive for some false and measly ersatz replacement for the real thing.
Blessings to you, Robert